Initially, I wanted to publish this post last Monday. I had to postpone it after an unexpected anxiety attack hit me and lasted five days which ended with me going to the emergency room. Now that I am recovered from that ordeal, I can now hit ‘Publish’.
I first want to say thank you to all my readers for sticking around my blog while I was away. Thank you!
Two Three weeks ago I decided to take a break from blogging. It was not a planned break, but rather a much needed, spur-of-the-moment break. And boy, oh boy, it could not have come at a better time!
Over the past two months my fibromyalgia symptoms have been flaring more than the usual occasional flare. Big time. I prefer to treat my fibromyalgia with natural treatments for relief, and nothing I did brought relief. Something was causing the flare and I needed to find the culprit. [Read my full story of fibromyalgia.]
After a few days of prayer I realized it was the stress of blogging, caring for my family, and caring for myself. It was too much for my body to handle and it was reacting to the stress. Stress is the main agitator of fibromyalgia, so it is no surprise my body was flaring in response to the waves of stress I was experiencing.
I immediately took a break from blogging and all other obligations. There was no set span of time for the break. I hated to do this, especially to my readers, but I was losing the battle of fibromyalgia. I needed some rest and focus.
Anyone with stress knows that stress (and anxiety) cannot be relieved in a matter of hours or even days. It takes time to recover from it. I didn’t know how long it would take, but after getting my husband’s support, we hunkered down for the wait until I got well again.
Over the following two weeks, I did nothing with my blog. Actually, I did do a few things on social media such as:
- Posted a status on Facebook every other day,
- snapped a photo on Instagram occasionally, and even
- tweeted a time or two.
The thought of ‘abandoning’ my readers heavily weighed on my mind, but it was my blog or me. I’m not sorry to say that I choose me. 🙂
So what did I do with my time?
I filled it with God’s grace, His words, my husband, and my kids. I focused my energy on my family and me with the Lord as my guide. I suffered through some of my worst symptoms during those two weeks (which I will share in a later post), but I am thankful for those sufferings because it has made me stronger than I thought was ever possible. He truly is amazing!
My body is still experiencing some flared symptoms, but it is nothing compared to where I was three weeks ago. Then I was constantly in pain, impatient with my loved ones, lost spiritually, and not being a good wife or mother. Now I am in minimal with an occasional flare, more loving and patient with my loved ones, more intimate in my relationship with our Lord, and being a more attentive wife and mother.
I began to pray for guidance on what to do with my blog – keep it or not. I really wanted to keep it because I felt as though I was called to reach out to others with fibromyalgia, but I wanted to know if that was God’s plan for me. At that point, I decided to leave the worries and let Him do His will in my life. He would make it known on what I was to do.
With an improvement in my health and spirit on the horizon, my husband gently suggested that I check on my site stats to see how my blog was doing. He knew I was struggling with the decision to continue blogging or not and he figured some numbers might help with that decision. I did not want to look. I did not want to see how low my numbers plummeted and how many readers unsubscribed.
I was quite surprised by the results.
It seems that while I was away, my site broke some records for the most page views, new subscribers, and other blogging related stuff. It was amazing! I cannot believe my site was thriving while I was not here slaving away at it! I even had several comments thanking me for my posts, articles, insights, and suggestions as well as telling me how helpful my posts have been. Amazing. This was the Lord answering me, telling me to keep doing what I was doing. I decided that I would, but in a more balanced and focused way.
My conclusions from the break:
- My working days are not going to be seven days a week like before.
- My husband and I have worked out some arrangements to when I am working (taking care of the youngest, homeschool work, dinner plans, etc).
- Take a break when work becomes overwhelming or stressful.
- My blog posts are going to be focused on fibromyalgia and how to help us all get better!
Thank you, everyone, for sticking around while I was away recovering. Your support means a lot to me and I am truly appreciative to each and every one of my readers. Again, I thank you!