What I Learned From My Hysterectomy

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Every difficult situation we experience is worth the experience if we learn from it. After needing surgery caused by endometriosis, I learned a few things from my hysterectomy.

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What led to the hysterectomy

When I was in my early 20s a physician diagnosed me with endometriosis. This diagnosis came as no surprise. Since I was 12 I became accustomed to painful menstrual cycles and ovarian cysts. My mom had endometriosis, too, and it can be hereditary.

What is endometriosis? According to the Mayo Clinic,

Endometriosis (en-doe-me-tree-O-sis) is an often painful disorder in which tissue that normally lines the inside of your uterus — the endometrium — grows outside your uterus (endometrial implant).

In endometriosis, displaced endometrial tissue continues to act as it normally would — it thickens, breaks down and bleeds with each menstrual cycle. Because this displaced tissue has no way to exit your body, it becomes trapped.

Endometriosis can cause pain — sometimes severe — especially during your period. Fertility problems also may develop.

Unlike many with this complication, fertility wasn’t a problem for my husband and me. God blessed us with four healthy children, and we became pregnant with each of them while taking birth control. (Birth control was a method my doctor used to regulate my cycles to lessen the pain.)

Now, after 22 years of living with endometriosis, I’m having a hysterectomy.

It’s a scary and intimidating word


An intimate yet scary word, in my opinion. It’s also a necessary and voluntary solution to my endometriosis. I am tired of living with the pain, and now have options. All options, but one, involved medications.

I listened to all the possible side effects and events that could go wrong during surgery. I still chose the hysterectomy.

It’s not that I’m not scared of the surgery because I’ve prepared for the surgery part and how to quickly heal in recovery. By my human nature, I’m worried about the ‘what-ifs’.

What if I get an infection from the operation?

What if I do have a bowel obstruction?

What if my ovaries are comprised?

What if my ovaries are removed?

What if I hemorrhage?

What if…I died?

Just as in everyday life, anything and everything possible could go wrong in the operating room. The doctors and nurses in the OR are human and prone to human error.

What if one of them is not focused on the task at hand?

What if the doctor forgets a step in the procedure?

So many what-ifs. So many precautions. So many worries.

Even after all those what-ifs, I’m still having the procedure done. Maybe if I turned those what-ifs to be different, and I look at it like this…

What if I turn my worries to God?

What if I leave it to God’s plan?

What if I trust that God loves me and knows what is best for me?

What if I praise God that I am given a solution to my suffering?

What if, by His plan, I am to lead a life free of endometriosis?

What if I wrap myself in God’s love and embrace this life He has chosen for me?

What if I turned from the negativity of worry and to His word instead?

I like those what-ifs better. I can feel my shoulders relax as I typed those what-ifs. I could feel the worries lift and leave me.

Do not worry - Matthew 6:27 #inspirational #Christian

What I Learned From My Hysterectomy

I don’t know what God’s plans are for me in the future. What I do know is that I choose to have this surgery, and I choose to look to Him for reassurance and love.

Thank you, Lord, for this chance at healing. Thank you for loving me and caring for me. Please be with the doctors and nurses in the operating room. Guide them with knowledge, focus, and attention. Please take my worries and replace them with your love. I know you will be with my family and me during this time and will care for us. Thank you. It is in your name I pray. Amen.

Peace I leave with you - John 14:27 #inspirational #Christian

The Bible I Use

When I was in high school, an uncle gave me a copy of the New American Standard Bible. He inscribed it to me and I’ve had it all these years. What I love about it is in the backstory to every book, references throughout the verses, and full-color maps.


I also use a composition book to record meaningful and important verses. I divide my notebook into sections for easy reference: courage, strength, etc.



Hi, I’m Brandi, the writer and creator of Being Fibro Mom and My Fibro Journal. Aside from my work on Being Fibro Mom, I run a group called Fibro Parenting on Facebook. I've been writing for the Fibromyalgia Magazine since 2016 and recently became the Secretary and Fibro & Families program director for International Support Fibromyalgia Network. Facebook-+-Twitter-+-Instagram

9 thoughts on “What I Learned From My Hysterectomy

  • June 22, 2015 at 2:49 pm

    I’m so very, very proud of you!!!! You are an incredibly strong woman, wife, and mother! God has great plans for you! Love and light always!

    • June 23, 2015 at 10:40 pm

      You always have such kind words for me. Thank you!

  • July 2, 2015 at 6:54 pm

    You are so amazing and so blessed. I hope you are recovering well and back on your feet soon. Thanks for sharing with Small Victories Sunday linkup. Pinned to our linkup board.

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  • June 21, 2017 at 6:28 pm

    Your story sounded incredibly familiar to me. I’ve struggled with endo since the age of 14 or 15 years old. I’ve had pain episodes to the extent of passing out, nausea & vomiting and losing my vision just from the severity of the pain. I struggled through high school, often being driven home by the school nurse because I just couldn’t function.

    I am now 26 years old living with daily chronic pain. I’ve switched doctors searching for help and begging someone to do something different. I’m hoping one day that they’ll allow me to opt for the surgery so that I can remove this painful illness from my body. It’s affected so much of my life and I no longer want to deal with it.

    • June 22, 2017 at 11:10 am

      I’m sorry to hear that you are still struggling, Andolina. The pain you describe is the same I had, and while pregnancy did alleviate some of the pains, it was temporary. If you ever want to chat, please email me [email protected] I hope you find someone that will listen and help with that pain.

  • June 12, 2018 at 11:01 pm

    How are you feeling now that you have had the hysterectomy. Any tips for those with children during the recovery time?

    • July 3, 2018 at 10:31 am

      I’m much better since the hysterectomy! I have less stomach and back issues, and even far less cramping. I had a partial one, so I still get the monthly hormone and stress issues though. That’s a good idea about tips for children during the recovery time. Before the surgery I made plenty of meals ahead of time, and during the recovery my kids played with cousins and friends and watched movies in bed with me.

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